Resent

I cannot resent you
It seems so unfair to do so
You have done so much
And been there so many times
Held my hand
Told me I would be okay
And to resent you
That just seems wrong
But now it seems so different

Straddling this line
Of love and hate
You are my love
You are not my pain
The one that makes me cry
These tears
You are suppose to
Wipe them away
Not cause them
These feelings
Of pain and sorrow
You are suppose to
Suppress them
Make them go away

I resent you 
For every tear
For every knot
In my stomach
For every shake in my hand
For every hesitation
For every hunt of anger
I want you out
Out of my head
Out of my heart
Out of my life
I just want you out
For good

I hate you
I loathe you
I abhor you
Most of all though
I resent you
This is all your fault
I will take no blame
You are the pain
You are not my love
And I want you out
I want you out of my life
And gone for good

My eyes
Can no longer see you
My tongue
Can no longer taste you
My nose
Can no longer smell you
My fingertips
Can no longer feel you
And I feel a sense of joy
No longer do I feel
That lingering
Resentment
That comes
With your presence

Now that you
Are all gone
I would not have it
Any other day
I no longer resent
The moments
When I cry
I no longer resent
My own emotions
For you are not here
And my resentment
Is not the cause of them


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