Tell This Little Girl

I feel your eyes on me
I feel that really care
And I love every moment of it
Never before has anyone hugged me
The way you do
Never before has anyone kissed me
So many times
I love wrapping my arms
Around you
And I love every moment that
You hold me
Yet there are times
When I feel moved to tears
When I am right there
Standing directly in front of you
Yet you ignore me
She means more
Or he means more
And it is like I am behind
Some invisible wall
In a place where no one sees me
Perhaps my heart is too fragile
And my soul fears pain
Perhaps I am just jealous
That someone else has your attention
Perhaps it is the feeling I have
The need I have deep in soul
That I want someone all for myself
I’m selfish like that
I want someone only for me
And no one wants only me
I know you do not mean it that way
Yet I feel like those training wheels
The third party
There yet not
Needed yet expendable
Does anyone really want me there?
I wonder
Or are they only touching me out of pity
Either way I only know
I’m selfish and feeling lonely
No touch, no hug, no kiss
From you or anyone else
Seems to chase it away
I do not blame you
Or anyone else
My issues, my problem, my feelings
They need to be pondered over
As I am examined on the autopsy table
I blame no one
So feel no guilt
Only the musings of a girl
Full of pain, loneliness and paranoia
Who hates to share
And who is selfish
But if I am not wanted there
I can walk away
Tell me to turn and shut the door
For I feel as the third wheel
When you turn your back on me
And it makes me feel worse
That it even makes me want to cry
It makes me feel weak
For I am not strong
And I really do love you
There are times when I wish
I had you all to myself
There are times when I wish
Someone wanted me
All for themself
Tell this little girl she is foolish
Tell this little girl she is paranoid
Tell this little girl
Someday
Someone will want only her


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